You’re supposed to keep me happy. You’re supposed to make me feel beautiful. Youre supposed to make me feel more important than those other girls. You’re supposed to help me through my struggles and be there when I fall. But right now you’re slacking. You’re supposed to be my boyfriend.
I don’t know anymore. I don’t know where we stand. You used to be there for me. You don’t even care. I always put up with your fucking bullshit and listen to you when you cry. But, when I need a shoulder to cry on, WHERE ARE YOU?! You say I don’t put up any fucking effort? That’s a damn lie. You were never there. You’re a terrible friend and I’m glad we don’t talk anymore.
Friends come and go. I will never understand that concept. All of the memories we’ve created. Secrets we’ve all shared and held tightly onto with our hearts. They all eventually mean nothing. We move on with the currents of our lives. It seems like every one can accept the fact that we no longer communicate anymore. Except me. It’s hard to process and hard to believe. Some one so close to you is now a complete stranger. Have I done something wrong? I will never know why or how friends drift apart. All I know, is that it hurts.
I feel so pathetic right now. Don’t you ever log onto your facebook and you see all of those girls with 100 likes on their photos, statuses and posts on their walls? Well, right now my self esteem is once again at a critical condition. I honestly don’t know what to do anymore to make myself believe that I’m beautiful. I don’t understand. Why? Why me? Why must I have such doubt in my own appearance? Why can’t I be happy in my own skin? Is it not good enough for you? It’s hard to accept yourself when you feel like others don’t accept you.
(Source: callmekarina)
